adulthood is like….I’m trying to get back into the concept of having hobbies
I’m feeling this from so many angles right now. Leaving a 5 year relationship as well as the 15 year lifestyle that is roller derby. The time refund is too much to take in at once.
How to friends? Where is social? What can hobby? Make it make sense!
I see a lot of people joking about the adhd thing of “I have a appointment/phone call at 3pm, guess I won’t do anything all day!”
But no one seems to make the connection that it’s a time blindness thing. One of the symptoms of ADHD is not having a good and accurate sense of time. And not doing stuff prior to an event with a hard deadline is an obvious coping mechanism for that.
Can I go to the store? It’s 10am and the appointment is at 3pm. How long does going to the store take? An hour? Three hours? Five hours? I DON’T KNOW!
I get anxious trying to do things before appointments because I’m aware that I don’t know how long those things take, and that if I think I do, I may be very wrong. Too often I’ve been like “hey I can walk to the corner store and grab a drink, that’ll take like 15 minutes!” and then an hour later I get back and whoops my rice has burnt.
Plus there’s also the fact that ADHD people know that motivation and focus is a two-edged sword.
Like, let’s say you decide to play a video game. You’ve got time, you can pause/save whenever, so this should be a perfect fit to make good use of your waiting-time. So you start playing and WHOOPS you get really focused for some reason today (because people with ADHD do not get to pick when their brain decides to focus) and the next time you look at the clock it’s 2:49 and you haven’t showered or dressed and the appointment is 30 minutes away. Fuck. (you could have set an alarm, but now you’re asking people with the forgetting-things-and-time-ignoring condition to remember it set alarms)
And with motivation, it can be almost worse. Instead of playing a game, you so something useful or creative. You clean your room or fix your plumbing or write a story or draw a picture. And suddenly it’s great. Your brain is firing on all cylinders. You’ve got all the motivation you can ask for, and you are FLYING. the ideas are brilliant, your hands are nimble, you’re getting stuff done you’ve been putting off for weeks or months. And then the alarm goes off. Time to go to your appointment. Fuck.
You drive there, your brain still full of ideas and plans. But by the time you get back, the motivation is gone. You may still have the ideas but you don’t have the drive to write them down. You can’t force yourself to do it. Your sink is still in pieces. Your room is half-cleaned, and you have to shove all the sorted clothes into one big bin just so you have somewhere to sleep. You’ve left things half finished again, in a cycle that has been repeating your whole fucking life. It seems sometimes that nothing ever gets finished.
So next time you don’t even start. There’s not time. You’ve been burnt too many times. Why add another half-completed project to your pile of shame?
My point is that people seem to be going “lol I can’t do anything all day if I have an appointment at 3pm” like this is a quirky “oh I’m so scatterbrained!” weirdness they alone have, and not a major complication of a disabling mental illness.
(and that’s not even getting into the secondary effects. If you know that having an appointment ruins your whole damn day, you’re going to avoid them. Even when it’s things like “going to that party” or “meeting your friends for a drink/game” or “going to a movie with that cute girl from your math class”. Things you should enjoy. Things that’d help you be social. Things that make you feel human.)
We’ve confirmed the plot: there’s an uprising among the race of hook-nosed bankers who control the economy. (Note that the more evil they are, the bigger their noses are. There’s a good one who has a big nose but he used to be evil when he was younger.) They’re “rebelling” because they want their stolen cultural artefacts to be returned to them and want to not be oppressed anymore, which for some reason means they also want to massacre their oppressors’ entire race, because of course marginalised people asking for liberation actually secretly want to kill you. As part of this sinister cabal’s nefarious plot for white—I mean, wizard—extinction, they want to kidnap a child, because that’s what hook-nosed bankers like to do, right? And their leader is willing to do anything for material gain, up to and including teaming up with fascists who hate his race.
You guys know that conspiracy theorists think Jews funded the Holocaust, right? They claim we did it so we could milk it for reparation money afterwards. And did you know they think we kidnap children? Or that we actually want supremacy rather than equality, and plan to subjugate the rest of the world for our own gain? Presumably you’ve at least heard the claim that we control the banks. And you know this is all very popular with the alt right, don’t you? Have you also heard that this game’s original head developer was an alt right YouTuber?
Don’t act like this is a fucking coincidence.
No, JKR wasn’t involved in the game, and it’s actively intended to be trans-positive. Yes, she gets money from it, and will likely donate some of that to anti-trans causes. But even if you pirate the game so she doesn’t make any money off of it, you’re still going to be be playing the fucking Protocols of the Elders of Gringotts.
If you’re not Jewish, read those tags and read them again.
I came across this and I’m not jewish but I’ve seen some on Twitter say that this “goblin artefact” is in fact a Shofar. In case anybody is still doubting that the goblins in HP are pretty much a caricature of jewish people.
“do it for the vine” = allow yourself to live life in the moment instead of maintaining a facade of normalcy for the enjoyment of not only yourself but of those around you
“commit to the bit” = adhere to the guidelines of an event that will in retrospect be nothing but a minuscule footnote, but continue to execute it for the complex web of happiness it brings you and your collective now
“fuck it we ball” = get the most you can out of life by putting the very thrill of being alive first and everyday occurrences and responsibilities last
I was a cute kid. Super shy and quiet. It took about three decades to find my voice. I like concerts, karaoke, video games, and tourist traps. Roller derby has absorbed a large chunk of my life, energy, and life’s work. I met a bunch of great folks at Piston Cloud Computing and now we just continue to do what we can to work together wherever. I live with my partner Jessica and our primary goal at the moment is to someday adopt a dog.
The only way to make this potential info-apocalypse into a utopia is to change our approach to media from a reactive to proactive one. We cannot passively have faith in the stream on our news feeds, default settings, and notifications to guide us. The companies that control these do not have our best interests in mind, and they have broken the public trust. These feeds are designed for one thing: Keep your attention for as long as possible in the short-term and long-term. This business model is fundamentally conflicted with our own life goals.
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